freedomisapen

freedomisapen @ 2008-09-08T05:29:00

2008-09-08T21:30:31Z

freedomisapen @ 2008-09-08T05:16:00

2008-09-08T21:18:51Z

ok. seriously?
wow.

freedomisapen @ 2007-10-30T20:20:00

2007-10-31T00:26:33Z

today i left work early so i could be home to get my heat turned on!!! woooo!
then i went with emily to get her new tattoo and got a new hole in my face!!! woooo!!!
then i went and got the new OTEP cd i've been waiting for since march!!!! WOOOOO!!!

this cd is amazing. go buy it. right now.

today hasn't sucked.

that's a good thing.

let's fucking dance bitch. :)

freedomisapen @ 2007-07-09T22:28:00

2007-07-10T02:29:39Z

i'm tired.

really tired...

and i want some fruit.

i want some damn fruit.

really bad.

that's about it.

goodnight everyone :)

freedomisapen @ 2007-04-25T20:11:00

2007-04-26T00:31:00Z

emily is sick.
she's been sick for like a week and it's lame.
she needs to get better.
because i have a feeling i'm going to get whatever she has...and i'll need someone to take care of me.

i've been thinking a lot lately.
as usual.
and i've decided i'm going to make some changes.
quite a few actually.
because i'm pretty much really really tired of being unhappy.
it's become such a waste of time.

friday i'm seeing paramore.
saturday i'm seeing otep.
yeah.
i like to mix things up a bit.

i hurt my knee.
pretty bad.
and it's not much fun.
according to my doctor...right about now...i should have it elevated...with some ice on it.
but that's no fun.

mmkay well i think that about covers it for now.
i had all sorts of clever things to say...but it came and went pretty quickly.
because i'm tired.

i'm done.

<3

she's the UM to my BRELLA
haha.
i know it's gross.
you're just jealous though.

freedomisapen @ 2007-04-03T06:43:00

2007-04-03T10:46:42Z

so.

all this stress...

is making me so stressed....

it's almost getting comical.

don't try to understand.

for the most part.

you won't.

but i do know, i don't need this shit.

i really don't.

but today is a new day...and i'm honestly going to try and make it a good day.

we'll see how that goes.

<3

freedomisapen @ 2007-03-09T13:29:00

2007-03-09T18:42:48Z

ya know what ~~FUCKING~~ sucks?
how many friends i've lost...
or at least lost touch with....for way too long.

LAME.

the worst part is...
most of it is because of the break up with abbie.
i needed time away from people....and before i knew it they were talking shit.
or saying that i never make time to see them.
~~FUUUUUCCCKKKKK THAT.~~

on one hand, i have made a lot of new friends.
friends that i feel like i can count on more than i ever counted on anyone.
real people.
but, i miss .....a lot of people.
but i won't sit here and say this is my fault.
for once....i'm not taking the blame for this dumb shit
i needed time a little time to breathe....then i got a new job....
that...takes up some time.
so.
whatever.

if any of them want to come back around
i'd be more than happy to see them
but most of them need to know....
they only made things worse for me during that whole thing...
most of the don't even know this...and i really should tell them....
just because i've got it ion me right now, and i'm pissed off....
but....there's no use in even going there.
i do know...i need to stop being alone in this house....because i think too much.
that rarely makes me happy.

anyway...
i'm happy now.
so...whatever...

...............and i fucking love having emily as my roomie.
for so many reasons...

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

...so many reasons.

what an asshat.

i love you emily.

i'm incredibly bored right now.

2007-03-04T20:16:53Z

there's a ghost in my house.
and last night...it was pissed.
haha.

emily got to meet my mom yesterday...fun stuff.
haha.
i'm supposed to go stay with her for a weekend or something next month.
that's been a promise since she left.....two years ago.
we'll see what happens.
but i have to admit, things are getting better with my mom.
and that's cool.

i'm so stressed out right now.
it's almost humorous.
like...sometimes it just gets so ridiculous that i can't help but laugh.
i don't think that's healthy.
haha.
whatever.

my head hurt so bad last night.
i couldn't blink...close my eyes....open my eyes.....move my head....nothing....migranes suck.
real bad.

i'm still out of work.
that sucks.

my mice are cool as shit.
haha.
well....i had to put them in different cages because Herman likes to chew on Louis.
and that's not fair because Herman is bigger.
we don't touch Herman....he's not very social.
Louis....is awesome...and adorable.

yeah...so...stressed...not a cool thing....just...keeps popping up...and i need...to relax.
so...after this week....
i don't care what i have to do...but i need to just breathe.
that's not coming very easy these days.
so....yeah....sounds like a plan.

i miss catherine.
she needs to get off work.
<3

by the way...
about and hour ago...
i made the most AMAZING grilled cheese sandwich i have ever had in my entire life.....
haha
it was so good....i made one for bubba because i just couldn't share mine with him.
good stuff.

ok.
i'm done.

<3

freedomisapen @ 2007-03-01T11:35:00

2007-03-01T17:21:51Z

alrighty....

so. i'm pretty much done driver's ed. i just have one more in car and then i'll be done. yeah i wish i hadn't waited so long to get it done...but not having it done never really got in the way. so, once it did....i got it done. whatever. and i got my taxes back....which means i could go ahead and pay my dad....get the dog's hair cut...pay the cable bill, and on and on. which means with my next check i can can give Lorrie her last $200. i gave her 100 like the week she wrote me the check...just so she knows that i'm gonna pay her....then i got laid off again....and work starts...monday or something....which as kind of good because then i could get my in car done....but still....now, with my next check, i'll have to pay her. and be done. and then....get a damn car....or whatever else happens to pop up that i need to take care of. everyone knows you can't get rid of one thing that stressed you out without picking up a whole new thing to stress you out. duh!

i went and saw the vagina monologues with emily and lauren last night. good deal. haha...i laughed my ass off...and almost cried twice. and then almost cried a third time from laughing so hard. i think i may have needed to get out of the house. yeah.
bubba is asleep next to me and he keeps kicking me like i'm in HIS way or something. haha...he looks so cute with his hair cut. it's a weird cute though.

yesterday i bought some mice. haha. yeah i did. i bought two little mice. catherine and i have been talking about getting a new pet for a while. and with the chance of moving or something it just wasn't fair to an animal i didn't have space for or one that i can't take with me when i go. except....i don't think it will be much longer before i get a new dog. i'm trying to socialize bubba more and more...and once spring rolls around i can take him to the park and try to get him around other dogs more often. after that....i want a damn dog. haha. bubba needs a friend anyway....and he surely does not want to be friends with the mice. he hates them. but he hated my birds too at first. we'll see what happens. they're so damn cute though....oh man they're cute. they got their names right before we fell asleep last night....Louie and Herman. haha...hopefully i'm right or catherine might beat me up if she reads this.

catherine got a job at the common market. good stuff. and things are great with us. i pretty much...love her more than i ever thought i could.

that's a good thing.
<3

um....i might be getting new glasses this weekend. i need new frames pretty bad haha. and i''ve been playing my guitar every second i get. started to write a new song...and stopped working on one as well....one i probably won't pick up again....because i just don't give a shit anymore...i couldn't get anywhere with it anyway. but this new one...i really like it. but i'm also trying to write more too....rather than playing all the time...i write a lot more....and then play...and i get a lot more out of it that way.

ok....i need to go get my room clean b/c it's pretty much a complete mess right now.

mmkay.

i'm done.

<3

freedomisapen @ 2007-02-23T09:55:00

2007-02-23T14:57:44Z

i'm in a bad mood today.

so far.

i think i'm still asleep though.

hopefully this will change before the day is over.

i hate waking up depressed.

lame.

whatever.

i'm gonna go make catherine breakfast and then go wake her up.

she better eat it.

haha...or i might cry.

that would suck.

freedomisapen @ 2007-02-22T15:52:00

2007-02-22T21:06:43Z

soooooooooooooooooo.
emily moved in and i think it's been amazing. hopefully she feels the same way. i love having her here and everything so far has been great. so, hopefully it'll stay that way.

i have no work today or tomorrow....i need the money, but it's kind of nice. i needed to clean the house. i never want to do the dishes again.

that was a lot of dishes.

anyway....catherine got a job at the common market.
awesome.

and i have a job starting on march 5th that promises me at least a month of steady work.

i can save a lot of money in that time and pay abbie's mom back the rest of the money i borrowed with just one pay period of steady work.

looking forward to that.

i haven't really been out lately. haven't been hanging out with anybody except for catherine and emily....and right now i have no complaints. :)

i'll be getting out this weekend though.
wooooo.

date with catherine on saturday...haha...and no...you can't come.

sorry.

but no.

emily called me a tardcart asshat the other day.....hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha...it's my favorite thing she's said since she moved in....and i laugh...loud....everytime i think about it.

bri came home...and i didn't get to see her.... :(

i'm going to PA this weekend....if things go my way...and emily will hopefully meet my family...haha...she'll fit in perfect...i have no worries.

i got a phone call today from layla....i'm pretty much her biggest fan....and i miss her terribly....i can't wait to see her this weekend.
she wants me to see her new house and she is sooooo proud of her new room.
candi said that everytime she gets into trouble she says she's moving back in with me because i won't yell at her or put her in time out....haha...layla....she's amazing.

sabrina the teenage witch...is hot.

yeah i said it.

ok...so....things are good right now...a little nervous about a few things....lots of changes lately....but i'm surrounded by good fucking people....so...i'm good....

and now...catherine is on her way home...i'm gonna go make some food.

i'm done.

<3

freedomisapen @ 2007-02-13T14:46:00

2007-02-13T19:46:10Z

today.
is 9 months.
and tomorrow is valentine's day.
good timing.

<3

psst...

2007-02-13T19:09:32Z

Catherine Gironda,

WILL YOU BE MY VALENTINE?????

<3

freedomisapen @ 2007-02-02T15:17:00

2007-02-02T20:21:35Z

i've had ani in my head all day.

and i watched a giraffe give birth on animal planet today....i was a little afraid.

i need to get out of the house but there is nothing to do today.

i have work on monday...this is a good thing.

ummmmm......

not being busy means lots of thinking lately....

leaves me a little confused....

that sucks.

i'm done.

<3

freedomisapen @ 2007-02-01T14:24:00

2007-02-01T19:42:44Z

emily conrad is moving into my house.

that's a good thing.

really.

it's gonna help me out a lot.

and her too.

and...i love the shit out of her. more than she'll ever know. and....we have a weird ass relationship...one that you won't understand...you'll only stand there and laugh. because...trust me....it's funny to watch.

ok...i need a shower.

i'm done.

<3

~~p.s.- i have way too much going on and way too much on my mind right now.~~

freedomisapen @ 2006-12-04T18:45:00

2006-12-04T23:45:15Z

so. i've got this pretty amazing girlfriend.
and she's at work right now.
so i'm pretty bored,
but she gets of work in like an hour...so it's all good.

um...i got catherine's first present . i'll probably give it to her for her birthday though...and not christmas.
and...she thinks she knows what it is. at least i'm guessing she thinks she knows.
but. um.
yeah,
she'll find out soon enough that it's definitely not what she thought,
because i found something she didn't ask for and i know she would've never thought of me getting her this,
yeah i know.
i'm good.
i'm also a huge loser.
and my dog just sat down on my cell phone...and it rang...and i'm pretty sure that was the funniest thing i've seen in a long time.
next to catherine yelling in home depot last night.

um.

work sucks, i'm fucking tired, but i can't miss any days. for any reason. because i need this next check to be good. as good as i can get it.

i bought egg nog today. i must've forgotten that it doesn't taste very good.

christmas is coming.
it's making me miss my mom...as usual. but...i'm pretty serious about making this a damn good christmas.
and i already know one reason it's going to be great.
ok
i'm tired and i need a shower before she gets off work,
mhmm.
i'm done.

<3

freedomisapen @ 2006-10-07T11:45:00

2006-10-07T15:51:20Z

yesterday...i came home from work...and i wasn't feeling well...and i walked into my room...and there were flowers...and a cookie...haha...and a pack of cigarettes sitting on my desk...with a little note...that pretty much made my day...

<3

freedomisapen @ 2006-06-17T13:09:00

2006-06-17T18:14:09Z

all these songs..yeah..they're getting to me...blah..._{but i cry a little less everyday..}<3
me

i can't wake up today...

2005-09-22T16:12:37Z

buildings and bridges- ani difranco

Buildings and bridges
are made to bend in the wind
to withstand the world,
that's what it takes
All that steel and stone
is no match for the air, my friend
what doesn't bend breaks
what doesn't bend breaks

we are made to bleed
and scab and heal and bleed again
and turn every scar into a joke
we are made to fight
and fuck and talk and fight again
and sit around and laugh until we choke
sit around and laugh until we choke

I don't know who you were expecting
probably some bitch who does not budge
with eyes the size of snow
I may get pissed off sometimes
but you seem like the type to hold a grudge
and in the end, I just let go...

Buildings and bridges
are made to bend in the wind
to withstand the world,
that's what it takes
All that steel and stone
is no match for the air, my friend
what doesn't bend breaks
what doesn't bend breaks

i love that song. mhmm. i'm go gonna hook up the DSL and hope it works.

lets see if this works out

2005-09-20T02:02:56Z

so i was on diaryland...but i always had trouble getting into that...the site was always down or something stupid...so i got sick of it...then i lost my computer for quite sometime...and so i decided to give this a shot...see if maybe i actually keep up with it...plus i'm really bored tonight...dad is gone again so it's rather quiet...i really should be writing...i owe a few people letters. we'll just have to wait and see how long this one lasts before i get sick of it and delete it. mmkay...i'm gonna go get something to drink...

~ME~